Weird 2

Y are you giving me that kind of look?
When you look at me, what are you thinking actually?
Why cant you just walk straight to me and tell me dont drink too much instead of telling me through sms?
Why cant you tell me that i looked good right on my face instead of telling me through sms again?
Why are you so afraid to talk to me?
Why are you not talking to me when i stand right in front of you?
why must you be so weird?
We are friends.... I talked to all the guy friends... I took pictures with all of them... Its ok for you to fucking talk to me right on my face....
Why must you be so weird? why?
You are so afraid to talk to me.... you sms me even though i am just right opposite you... Whats fucking wrong with you?
I am getting tired with all these....
I was not drunk at all, I was just tipsy, I can notice you sitting there watching me.... I am not being sensitive or PERASAN....cos my friend told me tat you are watching me.... i can sense it...
So what do you really want from me? Are you psycho or something?
You asked me to drink with you, I was waiting, but you ended up smoking like a chimney outside...
Why cant we stay like before... with no feelings involve...just purely friends and friends... ?
I wish i could turn back time....
Do you know that every little thing that you did to me, is gonna haunt me for the next few months of my life?
Is it that guys are like that?
All the guys are the same?
All the same weird guys in this world?
If not, why are you so exceptional?

Dehydration

I have been suffering with dehydration ever since Chinese New YEar.... from head to toe... inside out...
1st---My hair... have been applying with too much chemical... and i have been washing my hair like 2 times a day cos if i do not wash my hair i dunno how to style it or make it straight, so everytime if i have a function to attend i need to wash my hair... say if i have 2 functions to attend in a day... i need to wash twice.... so my hair is so dry and frizzy.... Whatever leave-in-condition or treatment cream do not help!!

2nd--- My facial.... have been applying with too much make up...too much nicotine...too much alcohol.... too much caffeine.... exposure to sunlight.... the weather changes that i have went through...from snowing winter to windy hot weather in Malaysia.... my face is dehydrating... really really need to take care of it from now on....

3rd--- My skin... same as above... very very dehydrating.... and getting itchy once a while....

4th--- My nails... i have been applying and re-applying my nails with different colors 3 to 4 times a week... my nails are cracking and my cuticles are peeling... I am going to remove all tonight... cut my nails short and give it a break.... I am gonna attend another wedding dinner with my short and neat nails....

5th--- My body system.... with too much alcohol intake and less fluid intake... I can feel myself getting sick.... and this is the main reason why my whole body is dehydrating...




6th--- My heart.... I have no more tears to cry out... I was so drunk last night and was feeling really sad once i got home... I cant cry... so much wanted to cry out loud... but i couldnt.... I am in a maze.... he kept me in a maze.... i cant find my way out and no one is helping me.... I am getting worry and getting scared.... I am afraid i will fall in love with this maze and refuse to get out from here.... there are some signs given around this maze, but there are not clear... my senses tell me turn to my right... but the sign showing to the left... i am confused sometimes... I do not know if i should follow my senses or the sign showing.... At certain point of time....there is no sign at all... so i am walking with my senses.... When i was about to get out... i see the sign.... once again i lost my way.... i am suffocate inside here.... I so much wanted to get out yet I am staying... I am hoping that miracles will happen in this maze...