I have not been doing much lately. Its like 6:47 pm now... ask myself what have in been doiing today? Have i make full use of my day? The answer is NO... I have been living with no direction in life. I have dreams but none of them being achived. Sometimes i feel myself is such a looser. I never dare to make the 1st move. Not in achieving someone i like and not in a new business plan that i have planned for life. I cant lose.. I am afraid of facing failures. I dont know what am i supposed to do in life. I have been telilng myself... Life is short.. go ahead and do what you want and go ahead and achieve what you have dreamt of. But i cant. I have no confidence with myself and i have no motivation. I need some inspiration...!!!!!!
After attendig my good friend's wedding... I really envy her and really admire her... wishing that i will have the luck like her. Marrying someone who she loves so much... he is not only rich, smart and good looking... he is also caring and loving.... what a perfect man..!!! A perfect man like him is not existing anymore... Even if there is, they are either being taken or they are gay... Hahahah!!! how sad!!! I went through some profiles on Friendster... and i realised that i am such a choosy fussy asshole. I cant find anyone who is interesting. Once i look at their face.... i dont even bother to look at their profiles anymore... I tell myself...appearance doesnt matter... so the next thing i look into is their hometown.... those from ulu ulu place.... i decided..."NEXT"...!!! then i look into their occupation... and mostly "NEXT" !!!!! so in the end i cant find anyone interesting...!!!! I am such an asshole rite?
Sigh...!!! I still cant get over him...
Sigh...!!! I still cant get over him...
